I have been on hiatus on the blog, for a couple of reasons, the most significant one being, I needed a break to take care of other very important areas of my life - my family.
In October the last time I posted on this blog, I finished the last course that officially made me a graduate of Masters in Educational Leadership. I knew I had to put a new order in my life. Since then I have been trying to streamline other aspects of my life so that the people who matter most to me: my family and I will benefit from who I am and what I mean to them.
By December, while all the rage on new year resolution was going on, I decided nothing specific or maybe specifically taking care of my family and me. What did I come up with? I decided to become a better wife, mother and take care of myself so I can take care of others and hopefully live long enough to take care of them.
That been said, what is my progress so far? Am I even making any progress? What have I done differently? First off, I believe I have tried to listen to my husband's needs, ask him what he wants and try and provide them as much as possible without asking anything in return, that's what love is about right? It has not been easy, a part of me has wanted to scream and say cant you see what I am doing? Can't you do the same for me? Ask me what I want? Well since the change is coming from me, no pressures for him hopefully it will pay off. Meanwhile, I hope that I don't get too angry and mess it all up.
My kids, not sure I am making much progress of spending time with them but I have tried to reduce the yelling/shouting because I am so tired from having to deal with middle school kids all day. How I envy stay at home moms. Not saying their lives are easier but at this point, I will rather be with my kids when I am refreshed than be with other people's kids and let mine get the worst of me. I am still really working on this.
As with taking care of me, I think this is where the most progress is going on. I have tried to improve my relationship with God, eating healthier and exercising. Having spent the past one and half years losing and adding weight, I decided to join weight watchers. This gives me more motivation and I guess paying for it ensures I stick with it. So far great! I have also tried to get my financial life in order, by cutting my spending and tracking every single expense I make to the last cent.
This is the 3rd month of the year, it can only get better. Every quarter I hope to do an evaluation of my progress, seeking input from my husband and kids on ways to make them happier, while keeping myself happy too.
If any of you get to read this, I ask but one thing - prayers! Pray that I become the best version of myself. The person I was created to be.